This is National Coming Out Week. In celebration of this week, we had special chapel services and I was supposed to give a testimony for today's service. I decided to write a poem that kind of sums up everything I've been going through the past few months. This is my journey:
Growing Up Gay Just North of L.A.
Welcome to my life.
A life of half-truth and darkness,
Where the light dares not shine,
Because I have been taught to be ashamed of myself,
Because my parents have learned to despise me.
Because the people cry out,
“Those who sin in the eyes of God,
They shall surly burn in the fires of Hell for all eternity!”
I can feel the fire now,
Growing inside of me,
Red hot with indignation,
Crying out for vengeance,
Raging against the injustice!
A creature of hatred and shame,
I have become the monster they so want for me to be,
A crooked mirror that can’t help but do what it was designed to do,
To reflect back a broken image,
A relationship broken,
A people divided,
Because we are all God’s children,
United in our belief that we are better than the other,
Because my light is better than yours,
And we will let our righteousness burn the fuel of our existence,
Until all that is left are the charred remains of a once promising future.
But, I have seen a different kind of light,
The light of open doors and stained glass windows,
Burning with a flame that moves us to embrace each other,
And squeeze so hard it almost hurts.
A fire that keeps us going,
A fire for the living,
So, I choose to burn with the love of Christ,
I will shine with the love of God’s good creation,
And I will light a new kind of fire,
And draw everyone around me with a beacon of hope!
I welcome you in!
Welcome to my life!