Time to start praying...
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Gay Guy in Seminary Day 122 (Church History Final)
I am desperately trying to study for this Church History Final, but all that I'm getting out of it is an ever increasing sense of impending doom. The thing is, I don't even want to do well on this exam. I just want to do well enough that I pass the class so that I won't have to take it again. I'm sorry, but I just don't care about who did what when. If all of this was linked together into some kind of flow of cause and effect in a bigger picture kind of way, then I might care, but I am not about to form that tapestry for myself, because I have no interest in history. Sitting here with these names and dates is like a weird form of torture. The test is in almost exactly 12 hours. If I have to take this class again, I just might drop out of seminary.